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james left for nyc on wed. im husband-less for another 4 weeks. wtf? sad, i miss him already, but itll be ok. school starts pretty much right when he gets back and im happy it does. i love our life together.

i need to get my butt in gear and start running again. i miss it. i think ill do 3mi after work.

im taped off the moldings and ceilings last night, im going to start painting our living room tonight. woohoo!

we went down south this weekend and saw my cousin that i haven't seen in like three years. we stayed in escondido at james' cousins house. it was delightful. went to san clemente, san diego, san marcos, huntington, and such. now im back at work. boo.

i'm sitting next to james in the econ lab. i don't have to leave for class for another 15 minutes, and although we're sitting just a foot away from one another, we already said our goodbyes. sometimes practice lsat tests reallllllly annoy me.

this weekend was a good one. i don't normally do hw on saturdays, but i have had so much hw this first week of school that i had to do like 4 hours on saturday. what?! we went to sam's and ordered most of our 495 wedding picturse. i hope my mom will pay printing costs. although i receive less than many of my friends, i consider myself spoiled.

well i'm going to start walking.
religion. group dynamics. weight training. pr writings. six hours of straight class. yes!

glenn beck came to our campus yesterday. comm students were invited to listen to him talk. i almost ran into him on accident... i kinda wish i did so i could say i did. he was just as animated as he is on the news. it was cool.
i have 19 credits. i might die, but before i do, i was able to make a book today in book arts.

so i'm not sure why, but i was just thinking i am grateful for my experiences at byu-idaho. never again after i leave here will i probably have to walk to school in -35 degree weather w/ the wind blowing and snow on the ground. although it's not the most fun thing, it's an experience to remember, and a reason to be thankful. i love my little idaho.

Success is Built on Inconvenience!
by Gary Ryan Blair

Instructions: Grab a beverage, print this lesson, and contemplate how it can be applied to your life.

Inconvenience: noun. The quality or increasing discomfort.

Success can be difficult to define, but having invested a large part of my adult life to performance related initiatives, I have witnessed first-hand, a strong understanding of all peak performers. This understanding, while unconventional and often unspoken can be best summarized in this statement:

All progress, change, and success is based on a foundation of inconvenience!

This truth applies to every definition of success, it applies to everyone and to every endeavor. In short, inconvenience is the one constant denominator of success.

Understanding the importance of behavioral inconvenience in relation to success is so big, so powerful, and so vitally important to your future and mine that I'm not going to mince words. In this lesson, I'm going to "cut to the chase" and present it in such a way that everyone can understand why becoming uncomfortable is not a nuisance, but a necessity!.

Inconvenience is part of the foundational building blocks of success. Every person who has ever been legitimately successful has formed the habit of doing things that others don't like to do. Our society has placed such a high premium on convenience and expediency that it has enabled weakness, while also creating an inability for many to perform at peak levels.

It's just as true as it sounds and it's just as simple as it seems. You can hold it up to the light, you can put it to the acid test, and you can beat the snot out of it until it's worn out, but when you are all through with it, it will still be the one constant denominator of success, whether you like it or not.

The acceptance of inconvenience and discomfort explains why people with every apparent qualification for success become disappointing failures, while others achieve outstanding success in spite of many obvious and discouraging handicaps.

Since your ability to embrace inconvenience and discomfort will help to create your future, it's a brilliant idea for you to use it in determining just what sort of a future you are going to have. In other words, let's take this big, all-embracing concept and boil it down to fit the individual you.

If true success lies in one's ability to understand and enforce inconvenience, let's start the boiling-down process by determining what are the things that most don't want to be inconvenienced by. The things that people don't like to be inconvenienced by are the very things that you and I, and other human beings, naturally don't like to do.

In other words, we've got to realize right from the start that success requires an unconventional approach and a much different philosophical view. True success is something which is achieved by the minority of people, and is therefore unnatural and not to be achieved by following our natural likes and dislikes nor by being guided by our natural preferences and prejudices.

The Inconvenience Factor

The list of things that most people don't want to be inconvenienced by is too long to permit specific discussion, but they can all be disposed of by saying that they all emanate from a willingness to embrace easy and convenient solutions to just about any situation.

The quest for convenience and expediency is like a drug that continually tempts people to avoid engaging in honorable and admirable behavior.

For the purpose of this lesson, I present the following as an exercise to spotlight inconvenience and expose behavioral convenience for the fraud it really is:

It's inconvenient to work out when you're tired. It's convenient and easy to make an excuse!

It's inconvenient to be forgiving when someone has hurt you or a family member. It's convenient and easy to hold a grudge!

It's inconvenient to be loving when someone has acted inappropriately. It's convenient and easy to be angry!

It's inconvenient to ask for help or assistance. It's convenient and easy to use guilt!

It's inconvenient to teach your child how to tie their shoes. It's convenient and easy to provide them with slip-ons.

It's inconvenient to be tranquil in a traffic jam. It's convenient and easy to get stressed out.

It's inconvenient to accept 100% responsibility for your behavior. It's convenient and easy to blame someone else.

It's inconvenient to tell the truth to ourselves and others. It's convenient and easy to lie or engage avoidance.

It's inconvenient to go the extra mile for a client. It's convenient and easy to say no, it can't be done.

It's inconvenient to prepare and practice. It's convenient and easy to be unprepared while offering a cop out.

It's inconvenient to confront problems head on. It's convenient and easy to pretend that they don't exist.
It's inconvenient to sacrifice and enforce self-discipline. It's convenient and easy to be lazy and procrastinate.

It's inconvenient to break free from a comfort zone. It's convenient and easy to stay where you are.

It's inconvenient to speak up when injustice occurs. It's convenient and easy to look the other way.

It's inconvenient to swallow your pride. It's convenient and easy to be stubborn.

It's inconvenient to be open minded and understanding. It's easy and convenient to be judgmental.

It's inconvenient to be empathetic and understanding. It's convenient and easy to be callous and cynical.

It's inconvenient to do the right thing. It's convenient and easy to be selfish!

It's inconvenient to be patient with a child who's crying at 3am. It's convenient and easy to get upset!

It's inconvenient to practice the golden rule. It's convenient and easy to be self-centered.

It's inconvenient to to tell people what they need to hear. It's convenient and easy to tell them what they want to hear.

It's inconvenient to put other peoples needs first. It's convenient and easy to focus only on our personal needs and wants.

It's inconvenient to deal with hard facts and differences of opinion. It's convenient and easy to view life through one paradigm - yours!

Perhaps you have been discouraged by a feeling that you were born subject to certain dislikes peculiar to you, with which the highly successful men and women in our society are not afflicted.

Perhaps you have wondered why it is that some people seem to like to do the things that you don't like to do.

Well, they don't and the truth is, no one likes being inconvenienced. It's just that high performers understand that the road to success is constantly filled with acts of discomfort. They choose to do what needs to be done.

But if they don't like be inconvenienced for whatever reason, then why do they embrace it? Because by doing the right things at the right time, they can accomplish the things they want to accomplish while feeling great about how victory was achieved.

Successful people are influenced by the desire for pleasing results. The overwhelming majority of people are influenced by the desire for pleasing methods and are inclined to be satisfied with such results as can be obtained by doing things they like to do or simply what they find to be convenient.

Why then are successful people able to accept inconvenience, discomfort, and sacrifice while most are not?

Because successful people have a purpose strong enough to make them form the habit of doing things they don't enjoy doing in order to accomplish the purpose they want to accomplish and become the person they they want to become.

Sometimes even the most disciplined opt for convenience. When someone goes for the easy way out, it simply means that they have reached a point at which, for the time being, convenience is more desirable an outcome than inconvenience.

And when this occurs you must focus on the bigger picture, on your purpose, and you will at the next opportunity behave properly and do the right thing.

Many clients and friends whom I have discussed this unconventional view of success have said at this point, "But how can I be expected to always embrace inconvenience when the temptation for convenience is so strong. Isn't wanting to be a good person a strong enough purpose?

No it isn't!

Simply wanting to be a good person isn't a sufficiently strong purpose to make you embrace the importance of behavioral inconvenience for the very simple reasons that it is easier to adjust ourselves to the hardships of a poor quality of life and low levels of peace of mind than it is to adjust ourselves to the hardships of making a much better one.

If you are still suspicious, just think of all the things you are willing to go without in order to avoid doing the things you don't want to be inconvenienced by. All of which seems to prove that the strength which holds you to your purpose is not your own strength but the strength of the purpose itself.

The Habit of Inconvenience

Every single qualification for success is acquired through the habit of inconvenience. People form habits and habits form futures. If you do not deliberately form good habits, then unconsciously you will form bad ones.

You are the kind of person you are because you have formed the habit of being that kind of person, and the only way you can change is through habit of inconvenience.

But before you decide to adopt the habit of inconvenience, let me warn you of the importance of habit to your decision. I have worked with and spoken to people throughout the world and have often wondered why, in spite of the fact that there is so much good in them, do so many people seem to get so little lasting good out of themselves.

Perhaps you have participated in a workshop or speech and have left determined to do the things that would make you successful or more successful only to find your decision or determination waning at just the time when it should be put into effect or practice.

Here's the reason why. Any resolution or decision you make is simply a promise to yourself, which is worthless unless you have formed the habit of making it and keeping it.

Impress this four-step philosophy on yourself, family, friends and associates:

If you set a goal, achieve it, even if it's inconvenient.

If you make a mistake, fix it, even if it's inconvenient.

If you start something, finish it, even if it's inconvenient.

If you make a promise, honor it, even if it's inconvenient

If you make a commitment, fulfill it, even if it's inconvenient.

It's important to take note that you won't form the habit of making and keeping commitments unless right at the start you link it with a definite purpose that can be accomplished by keeping it.

In other words, any resolution or decision you make today has to be made again tomorrow, and the next day, and the next, and the next, and so on. And it not only has to be made each day, but it has to be kept each day, for if you miss one day in the making or keeping of it, you've got to go back and begin all over again.

But if you continue the process of making it each morning and keeping it each day, you will finally wake up some morning a different person in a different world, and you will wonder what has happened to you and the world you used to live in.

As long as you live, don't ever forget that while you may succeed beyond your fondest hopes and your greatest expectations, you will never succeed beyond the purpose to which you are willing to surrender.

Furthermore, your surrender will not be complete until you adopt the winners philosophy that all progress, change, and success is based on a foundation of inconvenience!

i'm pretty much the luckiest person on campus right now.
i just got my internship approved for minimum 2 credits, but i'm nearly positive i can get 3 out of it which fulfills an entire requirement for graduation.
so when i am home the next two months i will be:
working and earning money
working and earning credit
taking an on-line class and earning credit
wow.
if my fast-grad application gets approved, which i'm almost sure will happen,
i am going to be graduating dec 13, 2007. what?!?!?!?!?! i'm so happy right now.

i'm in the econ computer lab.
i just finished 3 speedback assignments--all 100%.
i have 4 more semseters left until i graduate, but i scheduled myself to finish in 3.
i didn't think i would finish school in 4 years--really, i'll finish in less than that.
i'm going to the gym now.

it's official.
i booked a flight home for august 25th ...and... a returning flight for september 3rd.
i'll be in rexburg til the end of october, and i couldn't be happier.

i feel like i need to prepare snacks for cristina and james for devotional before i head to class.


i found the coolest song ever.
i need to dedicate myself to school more.
i've finally reached that point in my life that everyone talks about. the point where they don't know what the right decision is. the point where one decision can and will effect many other aspects of your life. the point where one decision is weighing on your shoulders and you don't know what the answer is, and you have a limited time to discover what it is. the point where i become more independent as i struggle to choose what's best for me. i'm sure i'll have several more of these moments in life, but this is the first.

i've been reading a book lately, i like it. i already know which one i'm reading after it.


things are good, way good.
i love cristina, i love living with her.
i love that i'm in control of my life.
i love learning more about james every day.
i love that we all get older at the same rate.
i love scrabble and setting goals while playing.
i love this weather.

i got a 92% on my test in my programming class. BOOYAH.
...so what if im a geek.
i love my life and continue to wonder why i waited so long to make myself so happy.
it's fairly hot in this apartment.
i don't want to leave rexburg--ever.
my sister is coming up today to see this place--i'm excited for her to know of my surroundings and see my apartment and stuff.
i want to go to another chukars game.
if i could go snowboarding right now i think i'd be the happiest person on the planet.
i just ate a peanut butter and jelly sandwich with a peanut butter cookie and blue gatorade.
i heard news early this morning that really made me rethink my life, attitude and progress. wanting to be better is not enough anymore. i need to be better.
i'm grateful to be me.

I'M SO EXCITED FOR CRISTINA MARY MAIO TO GET HERE!!!!

i'm in utah. i drove here alone. it was rad. music music music.

i'm moving next door to 503 in 5 weeks. i'm excited.

we got a 99/100 on our final presentation.
the average was an 82. we rock.

i have to wake up in 4 hours.
oh snickerdoodles.

p.s. tonight was bomb.

i won something! ...i never win anything!

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never underestimate the worth of an apex party

i'm really digging nickelback recently. i'm not sure why. but i only have class for an hour today b/c my 8 o'clock class got cancelled. hot dogs! i bought walk the line last night. i'm going to watch it tonight. and donate plasma i think. joey decided he'd talk to me again so now he can help me in class today with my homework. double hot dogs. peeeeeeeeeeeeeace.
p.s. everyone should know that the expression, "hot dog!" is jordans favorite.

i feel like i'm gonna barf, but i'm leaving in 5 to go snowboarding anyway.
pray for me......forreal though.